Shortly after high school and just before I turned 18, my mother took me before a judge in Iola, Kansas who gave me a choice of joining the Army or starting a career on the wrong side of the criminal justice system. Although I partied like a lot of teenagers during the 60's, I was never abusive nor criminal in intent - but I will always love my mother for trying to steer me in the right direction.
The only problem was, the year was 1968 and the Vietnam War was in full bloom. As I stood in line at the induction center in Kansas City, a marine sergeant as bog as god came down the line picking out the biggest and meanest for the corps. For once I was glad I was slight of build. The 1st Infantry Division of the Big Red One was bad enough - a jar head I had no desire to be. And although I "volunteered", Tillman I wasn't. My first fire fight I put my face in the mud and cried like a baby blindly firing that M-16 until the clip ran dry. But being shot at tends to make a boy grow up rather quickly.
My father came back from WW II a Staff Sergeant SSG E-6 as did his father before him in WW I. At age 20 I was made one of the youngest platoon sergeants in the 1st Infantry Division. The turn-over was pretty intense. And I will always be somewhat proud of having served during war time, sort of like I had carried on a family tradition.
But while walking down the Height-Ashbury District of San Fran in 1970 after returning to "the world", in my new crisp dress greens with three stripes up and one below, and a few medals penned to my chest, it came as quite a shock when two people came up and spit on my uniform.
Looking back, I think it was that very act of being spit on which caused me to start examining the world around me. It was probably then that I really started to grow up. It was probably then that I started to become aware of what President Eisenhower warned of the military industrial complex. And I came to realize how our politicans instilled the fear of the spread of communism to advance that military industrial complex. And now this old soldier sees the new fear being spread through out our country - the fear of terrorism. And once again our military industrial complex is doing what it does best.
Looking back on that war now, I have formed everlasting opinions that I will take to the grave. First, war is hell, but actual combat is a real bitch. Second, I hear the Vietnam Memorial is quite something to see although I have never been able to bring myself to make the pilgrimage - and I think the most wonderful thing about that memorial is that my name is not on it. Third, that if it were not for those protestors who put this country through such turmoil during the late 60's and early 70's, I might have had to serve a 2nd tour in Vietnam and my name might very well have ended up on that wall. And lastly, we the American people have a duty, even more solemn than a teenage soldier carrying an M-16 in a foreign land. It is the duty of the American people to ensure that we never allow our politicans to send our sons and daughters into war except for the right reasons at the right time. To ensure that Bin-Laden was chased to the ends of the earth would have been worth of the present sacrifice. But when this country declared war on, and made the first strike agaainst another country for the first time in history, I felt like the politicans had just spit upon my uniform.
Danny Newland